Learning From The Past.......
Have you ever thought back to a specific moment in time where everything just went completely left; or the entire bottom fell out????
I don't know about you but I have a couple of moments......
When you think or reflect on those moments what do you do? As of late I have been trying to find the lesson in the moments.
There was one in particular......Picture it Sicily (any Golden Girls Fans)
Anyhoo
About 5 years ago I was working for a private doctors office down by Wall Street and was presented an opportunity to take a State Job. Working for the Department of Mental Health as a Mental Health Therapy Aide (Glorified Babysitter of Adolescents with mental issues). Now most everyone was on the bandwagon take the job its with the State!
Is it just a New York thing that City and State jobs are so highly coveted no matter what the job title???? Asking for a friend~
*GEM* Every Good Idea isn't A God Idea
Listening to everyone but God I supposed now in hindsight; I took the job.
It was horrible.
I applaud anyone who does that type of work because it is extremely draining physically and mentally. I know it isn't the type of work for me. Regardless of the "money". With all the mandated over time you can come home with a pretty penny; if your ever really home.
I immediately felt like I didn't belong there. Seeing the children drugged up and some locked up and separated from the rest quickly took its toll on me.
God sent storm after storm to get me back on the track he wanted me on.
Not lil drizzle either I'm talking tsunami type winds!
*GEM* Sometimes the Storms in your life are to redirect you. Go with the fresh wind not against it.
So I left this job right with no safety net.......Shakira why?
I was constantly mandated to stay double shifts, never at home, my kids schoolwork suffered, I ended up with a ACS case and had to resign because I was working with children and now being investigated for abusing one. Which led to me facing eviction from my apartment...... Not to mention dealing with a random who crushed my entire spirit( we will dig into that lesson in another blog)
Sidebar: Having that ACS case was the most demoralizing experience of my life thus far. This Worker entered my home and proceeded to tell me " So I couldn't find you in the system have your prior cases been closed?"
Excuse me ma'am?!?
"You know you young mothers stay with a case about something"
Oh really well NO I don't have any prior cases.
"And your oldest son is 16 I am shocked"
Well you will just have to be shocked.
She also proceeded to inspect my home and state that by the look of things in here I see you don't have a money issue so whats your problem?
After her visit which was On My BIRTHDAY; she called my kids father and asked him if he feared for my kids lives while in my care. He proceeded to curse her out for even saying such a thing about me.
If there are any ACS workers reading this, please know I understand that your job is difficult and you want to protect the kids; but you don't have to be disrespectful in the process and throw assumptions around all willy nilly. Get the facts. Do your due diligence.
Just know all these years later this is still on my record. Yet it was dismissed.
Needless to say this was a low time for me. It led to a slew of dead in jobs. Finally going back to homecare after I had finally gotten out and vowed not to go back. And each client being more horrible than the next. Which was never the case before. Homecare was safe at least that's what I thought.
*GEM* What worked for you last season will not work in your new season.
I had come to a crossroads; I was being given an out.
Working in a Christian School and H&R Block and going to NYACK all ended but a free program more geared toward the work I want to do (which kinda popped up outta thin air) Interviewed and Accepted me.
And fear crept its way in and letting folks sell me on something I knew God wasn't sending me to I let the opportunity slip away and went with safe.....
Lets just say God did not let that rock for long and that was my sign.
*GEM* God knows His Children He knows some of us need subtle nudges and others need Billboards with Flashing lights and sirens. I am a billboard kinda girl, how about you?
I honestly feel like now in late 2017 I am finally getting back on course.
Here I am starting over AGAIN.......
I have said ALL of this to say.....God is a God of 2nd 3rd 4th 5th chances.
The lessons I have taken away are these.
"Trust Your Gut (She knows whats up)" - Cara Awill Leyba
God did not give you (yea you) instincts for nothing. Stop waiting for everyone to cosign if its a good idea! If its a God idea then its a Great and Glorifying Idea and thats what matters.
Where God Guides He Provides, But when the provision starts to dry up; A new season is on the horizon. Seek HIM for guidance. He won't steer you wrong and he will connect you with the right people to hear from and pour into you.
God restores. He will restore you from those seasons that you feel you wasted His Grace. Because even in the storm I Know He was Gracing me. I didn't get evicted, my kids are still here, never removed from my home or care and our bond is better than ever.
The random basically fell off the earth (God does that sometimes)
And here I am about to Start School AGAIN in the Fall (next month)!!!!!!!!!!
Sometimes we go around the mountain a couple times don't be discouraged by the multiple trips.
I Love You To LIIIIIIFE
SYN
Have you ever thought back to a specific moment in time where everything just went completely left; or the entire bottom fell out????
I don't know about you but I have a couple of moments......
When you think or reflect on those moments what do you do? As of late I have been trying to find the lesson in the moments.
There was one in particular......Picture it Sicily (any Golden Girls Fans)
Anyhoo
About 5 years ago I was working for a private doctors office down by Wall Street and was presented an opportunity to take a State Job. Working for the Department of Mental Health as a Mental Health Therapy Aide (Glorified Babysitter of Adolescents with mental issues). Now most everyone was on the bandwagon take the job its with the State!
Is it just a New York thing that City and State jobs are so highly coveted no matter what the job title???? Asking for a friend~
*GEM* Every Good Idea isn't A God Idea
Listening to everyone but God I supposed now in hindsight; I took the job.
It was horrible.
I applaud anyone who does that type of work because it is extremely draining physically and mentally. I know it isn't the type of work for me. Regardless of the "money". With all the mandated over time you can come home with a pretty penny; if your ever really home.
I immediately felt like I didn't belong there. Seeing the children drugged up and some locked up and separated from the rest quickly took its toll on me.
God sent storm after storm to get me back on the track he wanted me on.
Not lil drizzle either I'm talking tsunami type winds!
*GEM* Sometimes the Storms in your life are to redirect you. Go with the fresh wind not against it.
So I left this job right with no safety net.......Shakira why?
I was constantly mandated to stay double shifts, never at home, my kids schoolwork suffered, I ended up with a ACS case and had to resign because I was working with children and now being investigated for abusing one. Which led to me facing eviction from my apartment...... Not to mention dealing with a random who crushed my entire spirit( we will dig into that lesson in another blog)
Sidebar: Having that ACS case was the most demoralizing experience of my life thus far. This Worker entered my home and proceeded to tell me " So I couldn't find you in the system have your prior cases been closed?"
Excuse me ma'am?!?
"You know you young mothers stay with a case about something"
Oh really well NO I don't have any prior cases.
"And your oldest son is 16 I am shocked"
Well you will just have to be shocked.
She also proceeded to inspect my home and state that by the look of things in here I see you don't have a money issue so whats your problem?
After her visit which was On My BIRTHDAY; she called my kids father and asked him if he feared for my kids lives while in my care. He proceeded to curse her out for even saying such a thing about me.
If there are any ACS workers reading this, please know I understand that your job is difficult and you want to protect the kids; but you don't have to be disrespectful in the process and throw assumptions around all willy nilly. Get the facts. Do your due diligence.
Just know all these years later this is still on my record. Yet it was dismissed.
Needless to say this was a low time for me. It led to a slew of dead in jobs. Finally going back to homecare after I had finally gotten out and vowed not to go back. And each client being more horrible than the next. Which was never the case before. Homecare was safe at least that's what I thought.
*GEM* What worked for you last season will not work in your new season.
I had come to a crossroads; I was being given an out.
Working in a Christian School and H&R Block and going to NYACK all ended but a free program more geared toward the work I want to do (which kinda popped up outta thin air) Interviewed and Accepted me.
And fear crept its way in and letting folks sell me on something I knew God wasn't sending me to I let the opportunity slip away and went with safe.....
Lets just say God did not let that rock for long and that was my sign.
*GEM* God knows His Children He knows some of us need subtle nudges and others need Billboards with Flashing lights and sirens. I am a billboard kinda girl, how about you?
I honestly feel like now in late 2017 I am finally getting back on course.
Here I am starting over AGAIN.......
I have said ALL of this to say.....God is a God of 2nd 3rd 4th 5th chances.
The lessons I have taken away are these.
"Trust Your Gut (She knows whats up)" - Cara Awill Leyba
God did not give you (yea you) instincts for nothing. Stop waiting for everyone to cosign if its a good idea! If its a God idea then its a Great and Glorifying Idea and thats what matters.
Where God Guides He Provides, But when the provision starts to dry up; A new season is on the horizon. Seek HIM for guidance. He won't steer you wrong and he will connect you with the right people to hear from and pour into you.
God restores. He will restore you from those seasons that you feel you wasted His Grace. Because even in the storm I Know He was Gracing me. I didn't get evicted, my kids are still here, never removed from my home or care and our bond is better than ever.
The random basically fell off the earth (God does that sometimes)
And here I am about to Start School AGAIN in the Fall (next month)!!!!!!!!!!
Sometimes we go around the mountain a couple times don't be discouraged by the multiple trips.
I Love You To LIIIIIIFE
SYN
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